I am interested in many things, I like theatre, photography, business, spirituality, couching. but I have no job. I dont know how to concentrate on one.. all my friends from studies took one direction and now have high positions (I finished Port and Shipping management and Theatre stage directing and acting). I was successful in both. and I liked to study. why I am still in the middle of nowhere? I DONT KNOW. and believe me its not easy to be in this position. Now I see that I am making a copy of my mother's life. I see how sad she is that didnt find she really would like. she likes to sing. she started to do it. but she is not professional. and its almost impossible to come to this music world. everywhere corruption and ... Then you are losing hope. she was all her life very active. full of energy. she tried to work in many fields and was successful but nothing took longer let say 5 years. Its so not easy...believe me! I want to find my place on this earth. I want from all my heart. I want to be useful. I want to wake up every morning with the smile and to be happy of knowing that I am going to work. I dont need big money. its not about this. do you understand me?
I really feel you on this matter as I feel like I am at a similar place in my life. For me it is wanting to be an artist and make crafts, wanting to sing, wanting to get into the practice of healing and having no job to fund any of it and imagining getting the money and being indecisive on what I should invest the most effort anyway. All I know is that I want that passion and purpose that you mentioned. To take my place in the world somehow doing what I love and helping and inspiring others. My best wishes to you in your endeavors <3
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