I am Lost in space...

I am interested in many things, I like theatre, photography, business, spirituality, couching. but I have no job. I dont know how to concentrate on one.. all my friends from studies took one direction and now have high positions (I finished Port and Shipping management and Theatre stage directing and acting). I was successful in both. and I liked to study. why I am still in the middle of nowhere? I DONT KNOW. and believe me its not easy to be in this position. Now I see that I am making a copy of my mother's life. I see how sad she is that didnt find she really would like. she likes to sing. she started to do it. but she is not professional. and its almost impossible to come to this music world. everywhere corruption and ... Then you are losing hope. she was all her life very active. full of energy. she tried to work in many fields and was successful but nothing took longer let say 5 years. Its so not easy...believe me! I want to find my place on this earth. I want from all my heart. I want to be useful. I want to wake up every morning with the smile and to be happy of knowing that I am going to work. I dont need big money. its not about this. do you understand me? 

Back from Copenhagen

Hello all,

I am back and very happy. it always very nice to meet best friends. I didnt make big plans and didnt call to all my friends. and this time decided to spend with my closest ones. 

We were in Modern Arts museum "Louisiana". Then we had very nice dinner with wine and delicious food. and after all dances till the early morning.

But the biggest thing is that I understood how happy I am here in Hamburg with my life. I felt that I am already guest there and that my home is in Hamburg with my beloved man. sometimes its very healthy to leave that later you could come back even with more passion, gratefulness and love.

Trip to Copenhagen

Hello You,

Tomorrow early morning I am going to Copenhagen to visit my friends. I am very happy for it. 5hours and I will be there.  they already booked table for saturday dinner and also we have one museum in our plans. I love Copenhagen. I love becycles! And most of all I love my friends. one of my friends is pregnant. it will be interesting to talk how she feels. and of caurse I am waiting for night of long talkings and parties. Today I am coughing like crazy. I hope that tomorrow will be better..
I will promise You to write much more when I will be back. with all details :)
Take care of yourselfs! I am with you in my minds!

one two three ich bin lazy :P

Today: order in a balcony and german.

Promise is promise

Hi Everyone,

I am really that I gave this promise to write everyday. And now I just cant stop writing,even if only one person read it. So it is very good lesson for me. think what you are promising.

I decided to start to write blog because I wanted to know how does it works. and its really big work to make it interesting. you need to give time for this.

OK, so what about my day..I was at german school. and I understood how is important book from which you will use for learning. we have very bad book where is no system. you dont understand what you are doing. we are jumping from back to the beginning and from beginning to the end of the book. I was so angry on this book. so before going to school check which books it use. of course before you should make a small research what kind of books excist. I had some books at home reading because I wanted to know what they were learning from module 1 to module3 (I made german language test and had to go to module4. I had german at school). 

you know, I am writing here something and I am sorry if you are reading it and feel just you just waste your time. I really dont want to feel you like this. I look now to my computer and trying to imagine you reading it. I am happy that we met.  it is a reason for this. its already 11pm. my boyfriend is watching tv. we both had a nice day. I hope you also had a good day. if not you aways can write me. and always will answer you. viktorija_ibr@yahoo.com

Great, inspirational speech by Steve Jobs. Please listen it till the end! I promise, you will not regret!

Soul, God, Church

Hello all,
today I was in a seminar of one man who is talking about healthy life, spirit and touching religion.

What can I say...well..all these things are not new to me. I am listening, I cant say that he is 100% right or 100% wrong.

"Sins" and "repentance" were main words. At first you have repent and only after it - pray. he was telling that the power of repentance is very strong and I really do believe in it.  But I am thinking about one thing, maybe its better once to make sin instead of being sinner in your thoughts all your life.We have different ways of finding what is this world about. Making of mistakes is one of it. Just dont care your mistakes with you. Understand it and ask for forgiveness not only from others but also from yourself. We are all just Human Beings. Its normal to make mistakes and its very good when you understand them. you can say that one more rule of this life is opened for you. Congratulations! :) Nobody gave us rules how to live so you are finginf it on your own.

Then we were talking about church. I am originally catholic, but passive one. I believe in God, in higher power or energy. But its difficult to believe in all these stories about Jezus. People were writing and creating all these stories. I beliebe that there are many good things in all these stories about my God is in my heart and everywhere and I dont need intermediate to feel that God is with me. Sometimes I like to go to the church but I dont feel guilty if I dont do it every sunday. People need to believe in God. It makes them stronger. I will always remember what my grandmother told me. She said that "for people who believe in God its easier to live. they do believe that God is taking care of them, especially in a difficult moments". I understand what she wanted to say. and its sad that my grandma doesnt believe.. 

Please dont ask too much from God, do something on your own. Take care of yourself and of others! God gave you everything to be happy! so BE! :) one more thing, dont look

to everything too serious, life is game. Smile and have fun!