Who AM I?

I want to tell you more about myself that you could imagine my life better. I can call myself- searcher. I dont afraid of changes, I am taking everything what I am getting. I am making mistakes and I believe that mistakes will help me to understand this life better. Mistakes will help to understand other poeple. most of people are judges and I understand why. they are sitting in their comfort zone, in their bubbles and afraid of changes. they see just one side of this world. but life is so big. there are millions of senses, places, activities..

Copenhagen

At first I finished port and shipping management, I started to work, but I wanted more creativity. I didnt want  to live from salary to salary. then I finished Theatre stage directing and acting. (before I lived in Ireland, Dublin for 7 months) But guess what I found in theatres? I found big Egos. Can you imagine that you have possibility to send to public message? like a "Message to the world" but instead of doing it you just showing yourself? Now I steped back. I want to understand how I could send my message to the world.  I think that people need more light, more joy,PURE joy, more hugs and more "Heart to Heart" contact.I always were asking myself why for  people is more interesting to see shadows, rain and whispers and why green grass, butterflies and sun for them looks boring. how do you think why?...

after finishing my second educations I moved to Copenhagen. Why? because I had a dream to live in
Copenhagen. did you heard saying: be careful what you wish for. I believe in it 100%. I got this chance, I was living but I coudnt find job what I would like. I was working in the restaurant as a waitress. At this moment it was ok. I was partying. I was with my best friend in Ibiza, but after all I understood that I want to be useful. I want to work where I could use talents. I prepared CV, started to send it. but there was no call back.

Ashram from The mountains

then I got an offer to go to Ashram. its a place where some people are living and some are coming for Seva. People who are in Ashram must follow the rules of this place: everyday meditation, yoga and other breathing practices. In the picture you see the Ashram on the left side at the and fog. in other pic I am sitting on my beloved bench. Here I met Gurudji. I am not fanatic person. I know this organisation already 15 years. But I never was too deep in to it. I was taking knowledges and then I was going back to the world. But of course I was very happy to meet him personally. after meeting him first time in my life I died in my dream. I was dreaming that I am in a hospital. but I am not sick, maybe I was visiting somebody. I cant say. and one moment I cant breathing anymore. I am running to one of the rooms to the nurses. one of them is giving me the cup with water. and then I hear only voices:"She is dead". I was shocked, how I am dead. I wanted to move but this body didnt belong to me anymore. I started to panic because of my family. how they will deal with this news. Then the voice told me: "Its not your problems anymore, let it go". and I relaxed. this dream was crazy. when I woke up I felt so strange...It was like a new beginning of my life.

Me on beloved bench

After two months I left Ahram and went to Hamburg. During my living in Copenhagen I met one guy from Hamburg. And it was perfect situation for us to try what does mean to live together. So I am here already 3 months. And I am really happy! We understand and support each other.
but situation is still the same. I have no job. I started to learn german and I hope that later it will be easier. As I told you before I am working with lithuanian children here, I am making threatre seminars for free. and I hope that all this circumstances will help me to find right people. I am opened. :)